When the tears don't stop .

↳ in memories of the times where the tears start to fall ·ﾟˊˎ

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genre: angst. 

warnings: profanities

word count: 326 words

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prompt by Rozé

a/n: this was written in the wee hours of the morning, my head felt very full so I wrote this to unwind. Apologies if this is not your cup of tea. 

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There are times when your body needs to release.

Especially after locking up all your feelings away for so long, 

you'll need to empty it out sometimes.

So somehow, without you realising, your heart begins to ache.

A ball of lump starts to form in the back of your throat. 

Then warm salty liquid starts to trickle run the sides of your cheeks.

 

But your face is still. 

You don't have the energy. 

You don't have the strength to turn your face into a wrinkled mess.

So you just sit there, 

as mute as a fish while the tears keep on falling. 

They don't stop.

They just keep going until it gets hard to breathe.

Then suddenly, it feels like you're suffocating. 

Every breath gets harder and harder,

you're drowning out of water.

You end up breathing like it's a chore.

Then it clears.

But your heart still aches,

your throat is still tense,

and the tears are still falling. 

Your lips start to quiver,

but no sound emits from it, 

just a deep sigh as more tears start to fall down your cheeks, 

like the waterworks.

Sometimes you'd be lying down,

so the tears would trickle past your temple to pool at your ears.

But you don't wipe them away, 

you can't find the strength to lift your hands. 

More tears fall.

And once your body seems to be drained from water,

you stop.

You just sit there in silence.

You check your phone and it's already four in the morning

"Well, fuck." you mutter to yourself.

It's too late to sleep, you have your priorities to deal with tomorrow 

So you spend the rest of the night thinking Why? Why tonight?

Why?

But nothing comes to mind. 

You couldn't figure out why you had felt like this.

Maybe you just needed to release some pressure,

like releasing a little air from a balloon right before you tie a knot, 

just so it doesn't burst...

- by Rozé ˎ ࿐ ˊˎ- 

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